2021 Life Update
IT’S 2021, CAN I GET A HELL YEAH.
So the thing is- I’m one of those people where if I say I’m going to start work at 7 o’clock and then I miss 7, I’ll just fully wait until 8 to start my work because the vibes aren’t right. Ya feel me?
Anyways, because of that mentality, the process of us moving from 2020 into 2021 was pretty monumental in my books- even though in reality it was just an average Thursday going to an average hungover Friday. The vibes just have to be right moving into a new year, ya know? So this is my way of setting the tone for how things are gonna look in 2021.
With that- onto the life update, because GOOD GOD I have a ton to share.
the BIG things
I came to New York a bit over 4 months ago with the intention of only living in New York until the end of 2020. It was supposed to be September-December and that’s it. No longer.
After 2020, the plan was to move back to Berkeley, California and finish my degree.
New York was supposed to be my own little “Eat, Pray, Love” situation, but more modern like: “Eat, Eat More, and definitely no Love because I’m scared of commitment.” But that’s besides the point.
Anyways, it’s now January 6th, 2021, and all I have to say is- (skip to 1:00)
Now that we’ve established that my ass isn’t leaving New York anytime soon. Here’s what’s up:
1.) I’m going back to college!
Yes you read that right. I’m going back to college- just not physically. I’ll be doing virtual school, with a fully loaded course load at 16 units. None of that half-ass ish here. To be completely honest, I’m so very temped to finish college quickly and get outta there. AND if I decided to just single major- I COULD easily finish college this semester and say sayonara forever.
However, my stubborn bitchass refuses to cut corners- because if I’m going to go to college might as learn as much as I can. So, yes, I’m still studying the whole lot of it, and I still have two more years.
2.) I’m still working in fashion!
Alongside being a full time student, I’ll still be working my job in fashion! Will it be extremely difficult? Yes. Am I ready? No.
I’m going to be working during the day and grinding out online classes during the evening. If you thought I was packed for the last 4 months, this is gonna be even more wild. But as the high school student athlete boys say: “The Grind Never Stops 😈💯😤💪🏽“
3.) I’m no longer an intern!
2021 means version 2.0. Can’t say much about it, but we’re leveling up baby. When I hop on conference calls, I don’t get introduced as an intern anymore. Exciting stuff, huh?
4.) I’m still living in the same apartment!
Extended my sublease. How could I leave my favorite view of the city?
5.) I started a YouTube channel!
On top of everything, I just started a YouTube channel and I’ll be posting videos every week.
Will it be a chaotic mess of me being a busy human? Yes. Will it be a good time? Of course- how could it not.
Other things that have happened-
We turned our calendars to 2021, and I rang it in with my family in Miami! All of my New Years celebrations so far have been spent with my family and usually in Miami.
It’s kinda funny. When I was younger we would do dinner on Ocean Drive. As the clock struck midnight, I would see tons of couples clad in white linen outfits run out into the street and celebrate under the fireworks- and little me would watch in awe, excited to be in their shoes one day.
So, as I grew older I used to think “Oh I can’t wait for the day that I get to spend New Year’s Eve with my friends and boyfriend” or whatever. And NOW that I’m old enough to have the flexibility of doing that- for some reason, I have absolutely no urge to spend New Year’s Eve like that. That whole scene feels like something that’ll happen sometime in my future, but for now I’m so very blessed to be able to spend the clock hitting midnight being hugged by my family. I wouldn’t have it any other way.
So yes, as you can deduce- I have two shawties at the moment, and yet I didn’t get a single midnight New Year’s smooch. Actually, they’re coincidentally both on vacation in the same place, so there are higher chances of them two getting action from each other than me. That’s all.
AND the absolute cherry on top was when my Uber driver at 2am picked me up and said “no date tonight?” And I instinctively responded with “nahhh” Who would’ve thought.
As for the rest of my dating life, here’s what I’m thinkin-
I had a good time in 2020. Started my year with some fun. Took time for self love over lockdown. Dove into the NYC dating pool in September. And I left NYC for the holidays in December with a bang.
I know you all are very invested in the men in my life at the moment. And to be completely honest- I really liked both of them. (notice my use of the past tense)
On paper, one of them is perfect (the French one): Ivy League grad, extremely accomplished, well mannered, loves his mom, and big time Upper East Side private school poster boy. No, I’m not kidding. However, at the same time there are also glaring red flags that I’ve been ignoring for a while. At this point- things are starting to get kinda serious. In most other situations, we probably should’ve been “dating” by now- but neither of us wanted to put a label on it.
However, if I keep it going- I know it’s not gonna work long term. I’ll just be digging myself deeper into a hole that’s gonna get harder to climb out of at some point. I like everything ABOUT him- but I don’t like HIM. This is one of those things that I mentioned in my last last post. About learning to differentiate the idea of liking the idea of someone vs actually liking them. And I think that’s a pretty mature thing for me to realize.
Beyond that, I wish I could give you more details- but I gotta stay respectful. I only share 1/10 of the wild things that happen in my life on here, and the rest I have to keep on the down low in order to respect the privacy of others.
I promise that one day in the distant future (or once these boys are far far out of my life), I’ll write a book or something about the actual bat shit crazy stuff that happens in between the lines. Interesting conversations, insane experiences, and all the tad bit nsfw stuff. Until then, I’m gonna keep things civil and internet appropriate (with some hidden metaphors sprinkled in between).
As for Pizza boy - I just haven’t given him enough of a chance. I always internally leaned a bit more towards French boy. He puts in a lot of effort which I don’t always reciprocate, and I feel like I’m sleeping on his potential. Also he’s… more attractive. So, we’ll see where that one goes.
Overall, I’d like to start 2021 with a clean slate. And before you start worrying - I promise they’ll be new boys and more dates so very soon haha. And if there isn’t- Moroccan money laundering man still wishes me for every major holiday and sends me pictures of him with the most random celebrities (multiple). He’s always offers up an entertaining time, so I think I’ll keep that one in my back pocket.
everything else I wanna share
I started off this year dreading the idea of turning 20 years old. The pressure of no longer being a teenager felt like a ticking time bomb. Time was passing insanely fucking fast which gave me less time to achieve my goals- and well that’s scary.
Now I’m creeping up on turning 21, and I feel the complete opposite. I’m really happy and pretty proud to be 20 years old at this moment. It’s the perfect age where people take me seriously and I can be independent (especially while in the workplace) but I’m also admired for still being young. Plus on top of everything, entering your twenties opens up a WHOLE new dating pool. Who would’ve thought.
Go kick some ass the rest of this week and I’ll catch ya on the flip.
